Still not laid off

For whatever that's worth.

I've had trouble concentrating on hobby pursuits lately, and my blog, which I mostly contrain to gaming or dinosaur related topics anyway, is certainly one of those. But the good news is, I'm still hanging on there. By early February, I'll know for sure one way or another how things are going to shake out for the short term, and I'll be able to settle down a bit.

Assuming I'm not laid off, though, I'm still going to be busy. For one thing, I don't think our industry is going to improve much in 2009, and I'm not confident there won't be another lay-off task coming yet. For another, even if there isn't, this whole affair has brought to mind how much I realized that I don't really like my job, don't like my company and am profoundly disinterested in the entire industry in which I work. I need a new job even so.

So, that's one of my New Year's resolutions: one way or another come to terms with my job. Right now, I'm thinking that means I need a new one.

One of my other New Years resolutions is to write this razzin' frazzin' novel that I've been dinking with for the better part of several years. I think that I find myself intimidated by the thought of actually writing it, so I either put it off, or go back and plan some more. Last night, I looked at the rather pathetic 6,000 words I've written so far (which don't even get me quite to the end of the prologue---fantasy novels are long these days. I've gotta plan on getting well over 100,000 words to sell it in today's market) I got a bit excited to move forward again. I think one thing that's really slowed me down last year was the sheer mental exhaustion I felt after a day at a job that had me all wound up all the time. I wasn't realizing how much work was affecting my personal life.

Again; time for a change. One way or another. So, I'll be busy for the time being, even if I'm not forced to be busy by virtue of being laid off. But I'll try to get this blog thing moving a bit more steadily nonetheless.